Borderline
Personality Disorder Life Stories
54 year old
abused during childhood
I am fifty four and hope that by relating "My Story" that
it will help someone, somewhere and that it might inspire you onto
greatness by sharing with you my inner secrets, agonies, and
rejections of the past. I would like to add at this point that I have
6 grandchildren and two adult children.
Born July 4, 1946 into a family of dysfunctionals. (that means to
anyone who doesn't know what it means a family that couldn't function
free of diverse behavioral and mental attitudes brought on because of
some dysfunctional problem(s) in their family, and so on, and so
on.) Where it is inheritable. I don't know if it is or not, but I do
know that it is highly probable that it is environmentally
inheritable, and somehow along the chains of abuse we will be strong
and motivated to realize the pattern can be stopped and through
counseling, knowledge attended with wisdom, support groups and last
but certainly not least our faith in God, and ourselves we can come to
terms of ourselves and break the pattern and bestow on our children
that which we so desperately needed: love, acceptance and others
reaching out from their need to help others knowing that when one does
we reap what we sow. That it is indeed a blessing to both give and
receive.
So to cut to the chase, I will tell you that I was abused sexually,
emotionally, physically and told everyday of my life that I was no
good, I would never amount to anything, and that the only way for my
father to love me was to give him what he wanted sexually. My mother
gave me the message that she would always love me as long as I did
everything she wanted me to do including be her rescuer. There was no
sexually attempts made as my mother, at least, had more respect for
herself. One of the greatest secrets I have learned from all of this
was that I needed to forgive without discussing these things that
happened.
I don't feel it is necessary to go into my history in great detail,
but I want you to know that I too have been there and in some areas,
still am! I look forward in having others share with me, and perhaps
between the two put to rest once and for all these incidences that
have robbed our life from the pursuit of happiness long enough!
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