Borderline Personality Disorder Older Person Isolating 

Boy does this sound like me. I am now 49. I am so glad that I receive your BPDBPToday Newsletters. I cannot even remember how I found them, originally. But, your email today echoes my whole life almost line for line.

Yes, I am very withdrawn and very contented to be alone. Countless relationships gone by the wayside. Horror at my behavior! And I know I could not do better, or I would have. And the aftermath and the memories of a life out of control. I tried so hard to do a normal life. I cannot even go on right now.

I have never been diagnosed with the borderline personality disorder, but thanks to this letter I will investigate this as soon as I can get my thinking a little straighter. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder II and then my new psychiatrist doesn't even think I have that. Cannot get on SSI and I have a son and I cannot work. I don't know WHAT I am going to do if SSI doesn't come through. I have been to my last state Dr. appointment to see if they agree that I am BP II and Fibromyalgia. If they say no, I HAVE to go back to work, but I just don't think I am ready. I get too weak. Any ideas?

Thanks and yes, I agree that the behavior makes one want to isolate. It used to be fun, it used to be interesting, but I cannot stand the chaos anymore. STABILITY! Please!

Anonymous Person with BPD