Borderline Personality Disorder and Abandonment

Ex-husband Left

When my ex-husband left me, I was devastated. The bottom fell out of my entire world. Up till that point I had been able to keep up appearances, able to work. When he left, I wasn't able to do anything. I quit functioning completely. I felt abandoned, just like when my dad had left us when I was five years old. The sad thing was I didn't want this man to leave even though he was killing.

He was verbally, emotionally, psychologically abusive. He had been physically abusive. Turned out he was also having an affair and was leaving me for his mistress. My mental health had taken a huge nose dive over the course of our relationship and I was miserable. I knew that this man could very well be the literal death of me, but I couldn't bear the pain of being abandoned yet again.

It took me some time to recover. But I can say now that I am glad, so very glad that he is gone. Actually, glad isn't a strong enough word. I don't think there is a word strong enough to express my relief that he is gone and out of my life. There is no way on earth I would ever consider taking him back, ever.

Anonymous Person with Borderline Personality Disorder